New Year...I kept my promise

This year has begun. I have bid goodbye to the one gone by with mixed feelings. It was a year of discovery...about myself, about others around me, and my relationship with others. I have found new loves, lost old ones, rediscovered lost ones. It has been a roller-coaster of a year, that took me to uncharted territories. Some of them will go down to the grave with me. Some have made me think about the person I am, yet others have forced me to question my perception of myself.

It has been a year when I started flirting with poetry yet again from day one. There was a new fresh breeze that blew ideas into my life. They surprised me, confronted me, and confused me. But I am thankful that that breeze did not blow me off my roots.

I have always been worried about my roots, complained about their far-reaching spread, and their lack of relation with my present. But that fresh bout of wind shook me so hard, that I think I at least found myself gasping for a while.

I have hurt many people last year. Some unwittingly, some consciously. I do not regret either. After all, it was a learning process for you as well as me, no?

I have been, as always, very confused about myriad things. Including who I am. But I devoted a big part of last year pondering over that question. I haven't found the answer yet...the seeker that I am. My journey continues.

The new year brings a breath of fresh air. Even at this moment I am confused, about people, about emotions, about relationships. I hope I find some very important answers this year. And I hope I have the courage to acknowledge them. I hope I can stand up for what I believe in, but more importantly, I hope I figure out what I believe in.

God grant me strength to be who I am. God give others the strength to put up with me, forgive me and understand me. Amen

Happy New Year!