Looking for answers. Went on a long drive across the city. Surprisingly, did not take a single photograph. Was with one person who always makes me happy. Surprisingly, even she could not remove the pain and the numbness I am feeling. Saw more lights and firecrackers than I have in the last five Diwalis put together. Yet the darkness within is far from dispelled. What am I looking for? What is lacking? Where will I find what I am looking for?